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I have been having the hardest time in my life for the past week. I had to give away half of my heart on Saturday. I gave my horse away, MG. He saved my life when I bought him. I always wanted a horse since I could remember. I finally had the chance while I was in the military and I took it. I went to this farm to look at a crazy thoroughbred but when I noticed she wasn't for me I just went looking at the other horses. I wasn't looking for a young one since I didn't know how to train very well at that point. Then there he was, shiny red with the perfect markings and something just clicked for me with him. It was like he was my horse soul mate. He was called MG or Machine Gun Kelly but on his registration papers it was Spot the Masterpiece. I still can't figure out if I like that name or not.lol He was supposed to be a paint but came out solid. Good thing for me to cause I could afford him that way! lol He just turned 1 and I had to have him. I bought him and I started working with him and even got a job at the farm :) When he was 2 I put him in training and riding him was the biggest thrill of my life! When I got out of the military and was pregnant with Shade we brought him to CT with us because there was no way I could leave him. Now I knew there were going to be price increases, I mean its CT! After a while I tried to sell him but nobody wanted a paint. I mean he looks like a thoroughbred with really kewl markings. But what I didn't expect was for CT horse people to be such asses! And that's being polite. All horse places do here is cater to the rich. I tried to take lessons on him and all I wanted was 2 lessons a month ebcause thats all I could afford after board and taking care of MG. The fuckers turned me down because I couln't take AT LEAST 4 lessons a month. Not to mention its $40 dollars (or above depending on whos training you) a lesson. They politly said that I would get discouraged because I would feel as though I am not progressing as I should. What bull. I'm 25 not freaking 8. I know how the lessons would go. I was just trying to keep up with training a little and keep my body in shape. No matter where I went they pretty much said the same thing. Anyway, nobody wanted to buy my beautiful horse SO I found the best damn home for him I could and I gave him away to this wonderful girl Courtney. She gave me the options that I wanted like keeping in touch and maybe after a few more dozen raises and Shades in school so no more daycare, etc. I can buy him back from her if shes willing to sell. So Now all of my crocheting money I get is going into buying him back in 3 or 4 years! I do take donations. :) I almost havent stopped crying inside since it happened. Some people look at me like i'm crazy but they just will never understand that bond that a person and their animal companion can have. I had HUGE dreams for MG and me, but I can never seem to get a break from the world. It's way to cruel.

Here he is at 2. Although he will be 5 on March 26th. Lets all wish him a Happy Birthday!